Is it weird . . . ?

Is it weird that I just want my face to be touched, to be caressed, so badly right now?

I know that usually my posts are more about things other than the heart and it’s longings, (or are they… 😏) but right now, since my seizures, I care so much less about anyone else’s opinion of me. I’m happy and comfortable with the woman that I am, and I just couldn’t care less if anyone has anything to say about it.

(Oh yeah, I had a few seizures about a week ago, just as I accepted a new position at a PreSchool in a YMCA in central Pennsylvania, I almost forgot to mention that)

As an adult that deals with a few dozen developing children brains on a week-daily basis, I am brought back to the very basis of mature thought and understanding on a daily basis. This helps my brain to remember the important things in life and what others think of me just really isn’t one of them. What is important is that I feel that what I do, who I am, is good and just and fair. I almost don’t even care what the PreSchoolers and my coworkers think of me.

*Let me take a break right here and say that I really do care what my coworkers think of me. Their approval and cooperation is vital in the success of my career. I would also like to accentuate that I am not being careless about the public’s opinion of me, I’m just confident in the caliber of person I am and my good standing in society.*

Let’s put it like this: I know that God loves me for the goodness and pureness if my heart, I don’t think too much of the need for high opinions of people, even the people that I regularly interact with.

I’m coming out of the last stages of my brain injury and I am realizing that I am whoever I am and nothing can make me different except for myself. I don’t mind the opinions of others, I don’t need approval and I can just continue with how i behave towards others with confidence that who I am is a good and well brought up woman, who is also deeply loved by God. I know that how I live is good. My heart is content with that.

It might be weird that I wish to be caressed, to be loved affectionately, but it is not wrong and it is nothing to be ashamed of.

I hope that all of my readers are doing well in their lives, I hope all of you are as content and at peace with your lives as I find myself right now.

Tout de ma cœur. 💋💋

Hey, what’s up?

Hello, dear readers,

Today, I’m just so happy that I don’t even know what to do with myself.

I am 23 and before this year of my life ends, I will have graduated with a bachelor of the arts degree in a foreign language, it’s custom, it’s cultural origins and it’s people, plus I have survived a nearly catastrophic brain injury and not only lived to tell the tale, but I intend to write a book about it for the whole world to see my journey, therefore experiencing it themselves. 

I am looking at beginning a full time job at a bank in my hometown immediately upon graduation to pay off my debts and perhaps save a bit to begin my worldwide real estate-rental business, owning apartment buildings and renting them out to people all around Europe and the Americas. ☺️

There is a very short list of things that aren’t so great in my life;

• I am broke and job-less 
• I am single 
• I am still in college

But, a few of (most) those things will hopefully change soon after I graduate from college IN A FEW WEEKS! 😲 

I’m expecting that the first and last thing of that short list will be different. I’m not in a rush to be in a relationship just yet. I have $40,009.67 of student loans that prohibit me from dragging someone else into my life right now. 

Well, I will still be a few thousand dollars in debt, but I will have a job and I will be well on my way to a better lifestyle than I have right now because I will have a full time job. 😊

At 25 years old, I will receive a small bit of money (less than $15,000) to pay my college debts with, but I most certainly need to find a job that I can have while I write my book . . . and what could be better then working at a bank? It’s a full time job, but there are not too many hours and I will always have Sunday off. 😘🙏🏼🙃

It really does not get much better than this. 😊 I am so unbelievably blessed, it’s hard for me to keep up with!

I have not exactly been promised a position at this bank, but I am still very hopeful that I can fill the open stall at the bank on December 17th. ☺️ I am only so hopeful because the young woman that serves as a placement supervisor for the bank said that she would see what she could do for me once my schedule clears up. 🤔🙏🏼😊

Aghhhhh! I’m just eager for my first step into adulthood. I really hope this bank thing works out. 😊

My life is perfect, except for the debt, my relationship status and where I’m at with my education. 😜 Haha. Most of it is  going to be better in a few weeks. 😉 I am healthy, I am happy, I am blessed.

After I’m done with school, I will be a FREE WOMAN! Out to conquer the world -one day at a time-. 💋🙏🏼👠💪🏼💃🏽