Making Pudding

Hello, all. 🙂

This morning, just a few hours ago, I work up and decided that I would do something fun and productive with myself. In an attempt to be ‘productive’, I made vanilla pudding.

You see, I love vanilla pudding fiercely. I love vanilla pudding because it is a major part of my childhood.

When I was about seven years old, my mother asked me to help her bake cookies . . . . Didn’t see that coming, did you? :p

My mother had baked her ‘famous’ chocolate chip cookies countless times before I was seven, and has baked them countless times since I was seven years old. Those cookies never get old! They are the world’s best chocolate chip cookies.

What makes them significantly better than any other chocolate chip cookie in the world is not the love she puts into baking them. Well . . . it is, but more importantly in the creation of these magnificent cookies is something else. Something that I have ben blessed to learn at such a young age in my life.

I now, from my tiny little apartment, the one with barely enough room to stretch and do yoga, make these cookies for my friends, professors and everyone else at my college. Each time I give my cookies away, I am told that they are the best chocolate chip cookies ever. . . . . tell me something I didn’t know already. 🙂

These cookies require the love of the person baking these simply divine gifts from my mother’s cookbook. Love and the knowledge of a secret ingredient. I’ll come back to that later.

I absolutely love being in the kitchen. My favorite state of being in the kitchen is with no shoes on.

I love washing the dishes, by hand is the most dependable way, thank you. 😉

I like cleaning to a playlist of my favorite songs in the kitchen and anywhere else in the house. . . . . .I will be a good work-from-home-Mother someday.

Before I become a stay-at-home-Mother, aside from the obvious need to be married and have a few babies (preferably two, but who knows what will happen?) , I need to secure an online job within editing or publishing for a newspaper, a book publishing company  or a magazine and ‘settle in’ somewhere in the world. Maybe I should do this as I am finishing college, but I need to learn and copy recipes from my mother’s  cookbook and practice making the meals from the recipes given to me.

My mother sure does make some incredible meals. My father comes from an Irish-Catholic family, so we get the potato-loving from him. My mother’s heritage is German. With the two Irish ‘potato loving’ and the German ‘sweet loving’ sides to my personal heritage, it’s no wonder that I love to be in the kitchen! The barefoot thing is just my personal preference.

As you may have guessed, the ‘secret ingredient’ to my mother’s delicious cookies is vanilla pudding.

The pudding may not seem like a big deal, and perhaps it seems strange to put vanilla pudding in chocolate chip cookies, but believe me. The pudding makes the cookies a perfect mixture of soft and crunchy. The pudding keep the chocolate chips at an almost-liquid state for longer than the heat from the oven does. There are specific ingredients, as in the specific brand of vanilla extract used, the type of flour used  and the specific brand of the pudding used.

But, there you have it.  ❤

That is the formula to create the world’s best chocolate chip cookies.

Enjoy, my readers. Enjoy.  ❤

Jusqu’à prochaine temps! ❤

~Alexandra Mae XoXo

Rhetorical Analysis . . . in Perspective

Hello everyone!  🙂

Today, I write from my tiny little apartment bedroom where I hardly have enough space to do any exercising except a little bit of stretching and limited yoga.

This blog is going to be about my semester paper, which is doing a rhetorical analysis on the famous rhetorician of my choice (given a list of five rhetoricians to choose from).

I chose the most difficult rhetorician by choosing Origenes Adamantius, the devout exegete/theologian who was so dedicated to God that he transformed himself into a man who was incapable of having children, he lived humbly, expecting no pay for his service as a tutor or catechumen instructor.  Origen’s father was crucified for his Christian beliefs when Origen was only 17 years old. Origen continued his careful study of the bible and all meanings that could have come from it, along with selling scrolls and supporting his mother and six younger siblings.

He did all of this at 17 years old. . . .

When I was 17, I was responsible, but not THAT responsible. . .

For this analysis, I am supposed to analyze his rhetoeical strategy, compare it to the rhetorical strategies of Aristotle, Socrates and Plato as well as apply his rhetoric to a modern institution or company. For example, in the rubric, our instructor’s example of application is  “Ex. Argue that Isocrates is more ethical than Congress.”.

My application will be to argue that Origen’s education system was better than the modern system for education.

In order to do that, I will need to explain Hellenistic Education system in great detail and then I will actually propose that we go back to the ancient times by doing the opposite of modernizing our schools. I mean, sure I guess the computers can stay. Computers are useful for educational purposes such as research, but I am going to propose that we revisit the terms under which we receive an education.

Thus far into my study of Origen of Alexandria, I have become almost completely enamoured by his way of thought and teaching. I am enraptured by his close ties to his family and the fact that he was passionate about educating others as hid father had educated him. I find his theological ideas to be entrancing, I just need to somehow portray that in my essay, in a more professional way that literally saying I have a literary crush on Origen. :p
I need to describe in more detail about the education of Plato, Aristotle and Isocrates as well.

All that I need to do now is research on is the educational techniques under which Aristotle, Plato and Isocrates were educated. I’m sure that those techniques cannot be much different than that of Origen, so I am not very afraid of running into anything that is all that unexpected.

Ugh, my head almost hurts with all of the work that lies ahead of me.
But, I know that I can manage this.
I just need to actually do it now.

Jusqu’à prochaine temps! ❤

~Alexandra Mae

Just look at me, would ya?

I don’t know how I am going to handle the last two (three?) weeks of the semester, but I am most certainly not the type to roll over and play dead when the going gets rough.

I refused to act like a slug [almost] five years ago, I will not allow my poor little brain to combust because of work that I’ve known about for a long (enough) time to have it mostly done by now.

Oh, how I have dome this far in such a short amount of time is by only the Glory of God. That much I am sure of.

Aside from that, I am nothing but a broken, creature who never accomplishes as much as I could.

I want to spend my time thinking about how I could have used my time better in the past, but that is not going to be conducive to my goals.

No, I need to have my sole focus for the next two (three) weeks in my books. I can only attend PCM because that is my way of retaining the little amount of sanity that I have left. I can only attend Gospel Choir because I need to for a project for my class.

Aside from that, I guess I will have to go to The Voice Tomorrow evening to edit my article with Vanessa. But, I really probably shouldn’t do that. I think it provides me with just a little bit of a work-social life to tell my future prospective employers about.

I just beg and pray to the Lord that all of this work fits into my schedule along with my French class and France Today course.

Aaah! This week is crazy. My room mates chose last night to be loud, obnoxious and ignorant of me until 2:00 am. 😥

Ugh, I wish that I hadn’t requested to get room mates over the summer. I will ask the person in charge of rooming situations to avoid giving me room mates if my friend doesn’t move in here, or my close friends Kasey and Zach don’t move in with me. I can only pray that it all works out and leave it up to God. ❤

I am trying to get my friend to move in with me, because I think that it will lower my monthly costs and I do quite enjoy spending time with him.

Though I am struggling to get things done on time, I have been blessed with a really great group of friends, who empower me to do all of the things that I need to do. My friends and family (biological and otherwise) are my cornerstone. They give me all of the power that I need to be the woman I am. I love my family and friends. ❤

Honestly, I am pretty accomplished as a twenty-two year old woman. That was possible because of the family and friends that I was blessed with. ❤

I am currently  feeling helpless. Helpless, yet accomplished, weak, but strong with His power. I am, after all, nothing but human.  I make mistakes on  a daily basis. I am far from perfect.

I am very accomplished, but I have done no work. I am very strong, but I can barely withstand college. I am proud of the things that I have accomplished via my Savior! ❤

I will stop babbling now, as I must do some more reading for my Rhetoric essay.

Jusqu’à  prochaine temps!

THIS WEEK, the first good one of my semester

Hello, everyone! 🙂

I woke up early today, went to church, then came back to my apartment to write my article for this week’s edition of The Voice.

I briefly thought about turning into my big, scary essay for the rest of the day, but my friend wanted to go for a walk with me today, so I think that I will go out with her for a bit before my head starts to throb with thoughts of exegesis and Origen.

I decided. Officially. No more questions asked. I am going to go for a walk, enjoy the beautiful world that God created, and be in awe of it for a bit. Then I will probably just come back here and go to sleep.

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But, maybe not! I just went outside for about an hour and all I did was soak up some sunlight. it’s sort of like Google Docs.

It was absolutely delightful! ❤

I like how this website automatically saves what I’m typing. It

I write my articles in Google Docs because it automatically saves my work as I’m typing it. It’ the coolest thing! 😀

I wrote my article on there today before I sent it to my friend Vanessa, who is my ‘go-to’ pre-editor editor.

Vanessa, her friend Sam and I roomed together in NYC at the writer’s conference over spring break.

Vanessa is someone that I like a lot. She’s honest. Sometimes brutally honest. Sometimes painfully honest. But, it’s okay. I like that kind of person. Sam is very honest, too. She just goes about her honesty in a much more delicate way. She sort of beats around the bush about things, forcing you to guess at where she’s trying to go with the conversation. She will tell you the truth, it just takes a bit of work to get there. That aspect of her personality bothers me a bit, but overall, she’s very sweet and clearly has good intentions.

The purpose of this post is not to talk about my experience in NYC last month, it was to tell everyone that I am starting my week off correctly. I went to church, started a  blog, finished this week’s newspaper article (a draft for it, anyway) and I am not going to tell everyone my plans for the week. 🙂

Monday (tomorrow) – I hope to get up and go to the gym for a run and to lift some weights. Then, I intend to go to the library, print Origen’s First Principles, go to work, then go to France Today. After France Today, I hope to stay on campus until my Technical Writing Course. Then I’ll go to that class and come back to my apartment to get some homework done and get ready for bed.

Tuesday – I plan to get up early and stretch for a while before I shower and get ready for class. Then I will go to French class, then I’ll grab lunch and head over to my advisor’s office to write some more for my Origen essay. Then I will go to Rhetoric. Since I dropped my biology course two Fridays ago,  I am finished with academics after 2:00 pm on Tuesday and Thursday.

But, I probably won’t leave campus until much later in the evening than 2:00. I will probably stay in the library for a few hours, researching Origen after I chat with Vanessa about my article and it’s prospects and possibility of being published this week.

Wednesday – I plan to get up early, go for a run (weights, squats, etc.) and go to work. I hope to work for more than my usual two hours on Wednesday. Lord knows that I could use the money, and I find that work helps me to relax. . . . Paradoxical, it might seem, but work gives me a sense of accomplishment and my job is a very mundane, easy one. Plus, like I mentioned, I could use the money. After work, I will go to France Today. Then I’ll meet my group and eat something small fo dinner. Then I’ll go to Technical Writing. Then, it’s off to Protestant Campus Ministry for me! 😀

Thursday – My headache day. Ugh. I will get up, stretch, go to campus for French IV. Then it’s lunch with Ethan, Rhetoric, free time until 6:30 when I go to Gospel Choir. Then I get to come home to the solace of my bed and go to sleep.

Friday – I plan to get up absurdly early, go for a run and all that jazz. Then I intend to go to work for a few hours. Then I will go to France Today. Then (around 3:00) I hope to go grab cocktails on upper campus for the special event this weekend. Then I’ll probably nestle into my friend’s dorm/apartment for the evening (and Saturday night after we day-drink all day on Saturday).

Saturday –  I plan to wake up with a (slight) hangover in my friend’s room, then go out and day-drink all day. Do not fear, my caring readers, I will make sure to force myself to eat all day in order to avoid alcohol poisoning and a hangover! I will be responsible about my behavior! 😉

So, that is how my week looks as of now, on this beautiful Sunday afternoon! ❤

Jusqu’à prochaine temps!

~Aly Mae

Finally getting to it

Hello everyone! 🙂

Today is a Saturday, and it feels like my first day off in months!

I say ‘day off’ as in my day to get ahead in the ten page research essay on Origen Adamantius of Alexandria Egypt.
This semester paper is to be 10-12 pages long and I need to do more research as well as about seven or eight more pages of writing for it.

Thankfully, Origen’s rhetorical strategy is similar to my own (taking the Word of God as it is, with little-no personal interpretation), but he evaluates the bible in a much deeper way than I would have ever thought to do myself. The minister of the campus ministry that I attend is willing, if not eager, to help me with this as I write, thankfully. So, I have the advantage of her counsel while I write this, and I could never be more thankful than to have her help in this because it is the most intimidating assignment that I have ever had.

Because of my new resolve to do better than ‘well’ in classes within my academic focus, this assignment frightens the determination right out of me, leaving me feeling as though I am not capable of completing this to the exact specifications of my instructor.

Origen was a Christian-theologian-exegete, meaning that he studied and wrote about the stories and rhetoric of the parables of Jesus Christ.

Having lost the presence of his father (who was sent to prison during a persecution of Christians) when he was about seventeen, Origen was forced to work in order to support his mother and six younger brothers, instilling in him a deep resolve to grow close (and remain close) to God, which he also taught as a means of providing for his family.

In doing so, he gained a certain ‘knack’ (an interest/skill) for evaluating the words used in the bible by Christ and the few that were close to Him. His evaluation of these conversations and stories were closely examined by Origen and many, many exegetes since Origen’s time.

This assignment scares the crap out of me, as I said and makes me feel as if I am not equipped with the ability or knowledge necessary to do it, its a HUGE assignment and a large portion of my grade is determined by it.

I want to cry when I think bout how easily I could not do well on this. How simple it would be for me to get a C, C- or a D.

If either of those grades happen to be given to me, I would seriously melt, or die or experience the worst agony of my life. The worst agony, anguish worse than an of the pains caused by the nearly-fatal  car accident in 2010.

Oh, the anxiety caused by school!

But, at least my instructor will help me with this. I hope to have a final draft to him before April 20th. That means I need to kick my rear end (or my fingertips) into gear and type up a bunch of pages. First though, my eyes must read some more of Origen’s First Principles and I should probably go see if the library at my school has anything for me to use as a reference.

Oh dear Lord, please assist me in this terrifying task! Please help me, though I should have begun this assignment and come much further along in it long before now!

I pray that my determination to complete this remains until I have it completely finished.

Jusqu’à prochaine temps!

~Aly Mae ❤

Sometimes it hits me.

Hello, everyone! 🙂

It’s Friday and I’m home, done with all obligations that could have been considered academic.  Now I’m just chillin’ in my room with some coffeeshop music on while I blog and ponder what to dork to do with my night off.

Obviously, I will do homework, but I don’t know which class I want to focus on first. I have a significant amount  of work to do for each of my four classes. Allow me to review:

France Today. For this class, I need to do some readings and think about the Front Nationale in France since it’s beginning until now. The Front Nationale was, in a way, created to guard France of cultural loss or infiltration of the ‘French Culture’ by anyone else, most especially Germany or Italy. That might not be 100% correct, so don’t hold me to it. I think that’s what my professor was saying in class today.

Technical Writing. For this class I need to finish my Google Maps assignment and do some work with my group on the assignments that the four of us were supposedly to have finished by Monday. Technically, the assignment was due two presence or three weeks ago, but my professor/advisor is just an incredible person and he is so willing to extend assignment for me because he can sense the anxiety I carry with me. He is such a calming presence for me.

French IV. For this class, I need to get onto a website and complete an ‘exam’ which does not count for a grade, our professor just wants to see how far we’ve individually progressed this semester.

Rhetoric of Professional Writing. For this class, I have to do a bunch of researching and writing for a ten page paper that is due next month about the rhetorical strategy of a famous rhetorician of our choosing. I chose Origen Adamantius, the Christian exegete from the 5th or 6th century after Christ’s life, death and resurrection. ❤

Aside from the previously stated, I have nothing to do for the next 56 hours except to attend a Protestant Campus Ministry sermon on Sunday morning.

The intent of this post initially was to talk about the difficulty I have thinking of something good to post about everyday . . .

Sometimes it HITS me like BAM! IDEA! Other times, I just throw a few words into the blog until I am struck by a decent idea.

Unfortunately, the times when it hits me are when I’m in French class, or at a meeting and it’s inappropriate to whip out my laptop and start typing away at some random stroke of insight that I’ve had because of something I realized in class. Usually those ‘strokes of insight’ if you will are scribbled onto the note pages in barely legible scrawl that I even have to guess at sometimes.

Once again, my recurring theme of telling myself to slow down, enjoy more, stress les while blaming my subconscious for not stopping the stress before it happens. I’m going to blame the fact that I don’t read my scribbles from French class on my inability to relax from 7:30 am on Monday mornings until 3:00 on Friday afternoons on that stressed out ‘can’t-calm-down’ subconscious.

I wish that I had more of the BAM moments when I am home doing nothing special. But, “You can’t always get what you want.”

With that, I think I will take a preparatory nap before I actually embark on my mission to conquer all homework.

Jusqu’à prochaine temps! ❤

~Aly Mae

Blogging Seriously . . . . . Like Jesus

As I sat there in Technical Writing, my professor was talking about how to approach things in a proper manner.

The reason that this came up is because I lacked appropriate rhetoric when I presented the fact that my group is creating our websuite on the Gospel Choir at our university, the president of the choir has been challenging me when it comes to us creating the websuite for them. What the message is from my professor was that we ought to be doing things in a professional manner, making sure that all loose ends are tied up and nothing is left our in the open while dealing with our clientele. We ought to be.

However, ‘ought to’ and socially acceptable is difficult to mesh into one process.

The Gospel Choir is exceedingly African American and although I like to pretend all people feel like there is no racial barrier in our society, I definitely do not feel welcomed into the choir because I am white.  I also feel like I am not wanted at rehearsals because I am doing a project that benefits the choir more than it benefits me. I think that is what the president of the choir does not realize. I am not doing this for self-gain, I want to bring more attention to the choir. I should have presented the fact that I am doing this project for the gain of the choir. I did not present it to her in the right way. I feel like there are bad vibes when I go to choir on Thursdays now because of my misrepresentation of my intentions. 😥

Likewise, I feel like I should be careful in presenting myself to possible employers, ands since I do not know what area of business my future employer will be in, I should present myself in the best manner at all times. I should think of every person as a possible future employee. I should treat each blog post as one that might make or break my chances for being hired at a job. I should consider the fact that I blog more seriously than I do as of now. I should take blogging more seriously.

I definitely should blog at least everyday. I need to be more careful of what I blog though. Blogging about my personal life is probably  not exactly appropriate, as my professors and possibly my future employers have access to my blogs. I should probably go back through my posts and edit those details out of my posts.

Hopefully I will find the time to do that over one of these weekends. I will have to make time for that this weekend.

Maybe I should do some more poetry though, I just love how it feels to post a good poem, as I posted the ‘featured’ poem on my page.

Of course my blog posts ought to include more biblical text and more biblical undercurrent, as that is how I wish my life to be. More biblically oriented and focused is how I want people to see me. Much like blogging more seriously, I want to take the emulation of Christ more seriously. I also want to take my education more seriously. I want to take a lot of things in my life more seriously, but the emulation of Christ is obviously more important than all of the others. So, I think that I will focus on living as He did, loving as He did, and all of the rest of the important things will come after that. Hopefully everything else will just fall into place after I embody His word. ❤

That just about sums up my life right now, having an insatiable desire to emulate Christ in every way. ❤

Jusqu’à prochaine temps! ❤

~Aly Mae XoXo

A Sense of Panic / Human Behavior

Hello everyone!

As I blog today, I am sitting in front of the room where I have Technical Writing thinking about the fact that I lack a sense of panic when I really ought to have one regarding all of the work that lies ahead of me.

I post this particular blog after taking a walk in the building, admiring all of the little things that I love about life, such as the flamingos on the water fountain the quad at my university. I wonder how many people noticed them this morning. I wonder if people take the time to relish in the many things that make life so simply wonderful and delightful everyday.

I wonder if the young man sitting next to me ever looks more deeply into the way people interact with eachother two bodies communicate with one another in a pleasant manner. I wonder if he sees the innuendos they say to eachother by holding their hands together in front of them, fingers interlaced as if holding hands with another person, or by holding their hands on their hips, or behind their back, exposing their front side to the world they face.

I wonder if my friends notice the fact that my whole face lifts when I see them for the first time in a day, week, month or in a long time at all.

I wonder if anyone else in this great blue & green egg notice the smallest things about human interaction and behavior. I am sure that it’s not just me that notices small changes in a person’s demeanor when another person walks into the room, or when a person walks past them and says, without words, that they desire to speak with you.

I wonder if people know that eyes can speak more than mouths ever could. I wonder if people know how to ‘be there’ for a person who has lost someone important without saying a word, just physically being there.

I wonder if people can sense that they are doing the right thing by helping another person, if even in the slightest way.

I wonder if people are able to recognize how important it is to be good to others on a consistent basis, how important it is to be a ‘nice’ person at all times. I wonder if people realize that being nice can mean more to someone else than they may ever realize, and be okay with that.

I wonder if everyone else realizes how vital the natural world is to not only the lives of the next generation and every generation after that, but how important it is to OUR generation, how important it is to our future to take care of the beautiful green and blue egg we were born on.

I just wonder how aware people are of how other people work in gloriously, beautifully different ways. Cultures, ALL cultures are beautiful and we ALL need to start embracing the differences in our culture compared to that of other countries and peoples all over the world.

I wonder if other people realize that LOVE is the post important thing on earth. I wonder if anyone else recognizes the fact that love always makes people better than hate ever could. I wonder if anyone else in the world realizes how important knowledge is to the future of this species.

I wonder all of these things while sitting in the hallway of my Technical Writing class.

Jusqu’à prochaine temps! ❤

~Aly Mae

In Retrospect . . . Honestly this time

Hello everyone! ❤

I sit here in my bedroom, reading a few of my blog posts realizing how much wisdom lies in my words.

My grandmother (Dad’s mom) has always told me that I am wise beyond my years, and I am starting to see how that is true in some situations.

I need to set this story up a little bit with stating the fact that I am in a group who is working on creating a web-suite for the Gospel Choir at our college. Last Wednesday before we presented on the progress of our group o the class, we had a meeting to discuss our progress amongst ourselves in order to prepare for the presentation. While we were discussing this, we realized that I had incorrectly placed our Google Documents within the Google folder in our Drives.

My group is two other young women and a young man. I am the ‘leader’ of this group. My group members were in a sort of panic, trying to figure out how we might fix this problem. While my group was an a frenzy-like state, I diligently ignored their stress and completed the task of correctly placing all of our documents in a shared folder.  That story does not precisely show maturity, or ‘wisdom beyond my years’, but it exemplifies how I can keep a level-head while I am in a stressful situation, which I guess you could attribute to maturity or wisdom.

Additionally, for the same class that I have said group in,  I must create a Google Map. I love Google. It is holding a large percentage of my educational documents as well as being the forum on which I actually create most of my educational documents.  Plus, it’s free, given one has Wi-Fi and the technology to use it.  Google rocks. ❤

Something that just ‘hit me’ unfortunately is that all of the history, math and science that I learned in high-school (and have been blessed enough to remember) is the same exact information that I am learning now!

I have to admit, it is a little bit embarrassing to say this, but there has been some sort of strange counterproductive disconnect in my brain with information that I knew before the traumatic car accident to the information that I am learning (or [in many cases] RE learning) now! I feel like I’ve just discovered the cure for cancer, or something!! . . . . . . . Okay, maybe not that fantastic, but I feel like I just made a breakthrough in my psyche. I just need to figure out how to repair all of the disconnects in my brain from the last five years. Hmm. This is not going to be easy.

Essentially, I have to manually rewire my brain. This will not be fun. It will be worth it though.
My brain has ‘been through the ringer’ with the car accident and a few bumps by things hanging too low from the ceiling or a low ceiling, but I think I will be able to rewire it and make it all work functionally. . . .Well, I hope that I will.

I need to prepare myself for a few different BIG events today. One will be meeting with a writing professional to create/complete my Google Map (detailing significant events in my life according to locations along with images and short  descriptions of events that took place in said locations). Another will be to rewrite my essay on a movie that I saw in January or February about MLKJr’s plight for equal rights.

As I look back on a few of my past blog posts, I realize that I am not as lacking in wisdom or intelligence as I often feel.
I sort of know what I’m talking about, I’m just not so good at putting into practice the things that I talk about doing.

I will just have to improve on actually doing the things that I have said I will.

Jusqu’à prochaine temps! ❤

~Aly Mae

Avant/Apres le Class de Rhetoric

Bonjour, tout le monde!  Ca va?

Hehe!

I know a bit more French than that, but I don’t really feel confident enough in my ability to speak another language to type the whole post in French. . . . yet. I am determined to get to a point where I’m more than okay with typing an entire post in French.

I WILL get there!

I’m determined. 😉

Until then, I will just continue to speak with my Portuguese friends in French. I am so impressed with people, like my sister, who can easily switch between TWO languages, let alone THREE or FOUR.

I sit here as class is beginning and we are discussing finals week and how our only ‘final’ for this class is an essay on the rhetorician of our choosing.

Our prof brought the discussion to  ‘image of self’ with a reference to the movie “Finding Forrester” which is definitely something that I want to watch.

My friend. well, one of my friends in the class is pushing to have the paper discounted from our obligations for this class, but I’m thinking that it’s not going to happen like that.  It’d be nice though.

I have SOO much work, mainly essay writing to do for not only this class, but for other classes taught by my advisor. It’s not just those two classes, though. I have a crap load of work to do for my French-related courses.

Essentially, I will be working my butt off until the last second for this and all of my other classes until May 8th.

Ugh!! College is so draining, tough and mentally invigorating. ❤

Yes, I love it. I feel as though my body is literally begging and pleading NOT to have to walk down and up, down and up the hill on campus everyday of the week, but it’s good for my rear end and I like pushing my body.

Though I often do cheat and take elevators, my back end is apparently not as flat as before and my belly is not quite as round as it once was. Man, I really need to lay off on the chocolates! It’s a big problem for me.

Well, it won’t be after May 10th, (FOUR WEEKS AWAY! EEK!!) so I’d better start eating better now and I’ll definitely need to work on some acne reduction if I’m going to go for any internships this summer as I’d planned. :p

That’s not all I need to do within the next few weeks though, I need to finish my letter of interest for my internship and I’ll need to work on some more professional apparel. :p Obviously the letter of interest is more important than the clothing, so I’ll talk about the letter before I talk all girly. 🙂

In my letter, I need to ‘sell myself to them’ says my advisor. I don’t know how to do that. I don’t feel worthy half of the time, so I don’t really know how to make my *hopeful* employers feel like they ‘need’ me on their staff.
I need them more than they need me, and I’m bad at making myself look like a professional. I’m still a student, and I struggle envisioning myself out of school and in the workforce.

Hmm, I wonder if my mother will help me with the clothing and/or the confidence. 😉

I hope so, she’s got great fashion sense. Not as good as my younger sister’s, but she has pretty work-clothing.

The only thing that neither my mother or sister wear is dresses. I love dresses. I love dresses so much that if I am fortunate enough to live in a continually warm climate, I will only wear pants when I come ‘home’ to the cold weather to see my family. I immensely dislike pants. I’m very feminine when I have a dress on, and I feel like a dude with pants on, it’s a bit depressing.

Well, that’s all for now folks!

Catch y’all next time! ❤

~Aly Mae XoXo