I just want to kind of throw out random thoughts and emotions going on in my heart and in my head throughout my daily life. Initially, I started this blog (last week) as a requirement for a course that I am taking this semester in college, but I think that I am going to do a blog everyday, even after I graduate from college. This soothes my mind and helps me feel like I am accomplishing something everyday. Plus, I think it will look great on a résumé once I start looking for jobs after college! Eventually, I hope to be able to write blogs in other languages, as my advisor/instructor does. But, I am probably a long way off from that!
However, I am currently in a French 4 class. I should be in a French 3 class, as the last course I took was level 200. But this just didn’t work out chronologically. I hope I am able to keep up in my level 4 class. I’m already getting nervous, and it’s only one and a half weeks into the semester.
Today, I was just reminded by the head of the English department at my school that I will need to create an ePortfolio for graduation, with ten documents showcasing my skills in writing documents in different contexts such as professional, journalism and narrative writing.
I take part in my student newspaper every week and I just started this blog about one week ago. But, I feel that I haven’t really accomplished enough during my time as a college student, so my heart feels nervous about this requirement that I have.
Because I feel that I have not written enough documents, my heart also feels slightly uncomfortable with throwing them out there as if they were the work of a professional. I feel that I am not a professional, I’m just a student. I do not have that kind of literary confidence yet, and I doubt if I ever will. I try to write only about things that I am passionate about, or deeply interested in, such as French culture, or European History. However, obviously that is not a very good idea to write on for an American Literature class.
Fortunately, my Technical Writing course for the semester will have me doing all sorts of compositions in different kinds of documents and I will be able to procure a few different documents from that class and hopefully put them into my ePortfolio. This way, I will have the ePortfolio at least started by the end of this semester.
I am definitely struggling with how to approach this ePortfolio matter. I feel like I am all over the place with it.
I hope that my advisor can help me out with it.
But, I guess that I’ll just have to wait and see.
I think that I need a few more daylight hours in each day. Between travel time, time spent in the bathroom and eating, I simply do not have enough time to do ALL things needed to be done for school. I am approaching this semester with a relaxed attitude and I hope that this works for me, because I might just have to drop out of school for a while if it doesn’t.
If I would say that to my mother, I can already hear her screaming at me telling me that “THAT IS NOT AN OPTION!”. I love her. She’s harsh and gets angry at me pretty easily, but she is also extremely supportive of my endeavors. She loves me. I love her. 🙂
There is a certain requirement on how long my posts are to be, and I feel like I am making things up to make it longer. That makes me feel irresponsible and unworthy of the high credibility that I am held to while in college.
Since I am making up thinks to talk about, I will call it the end. I’ll be back later! 😉
Jusqu’à la prochaine fois ,
God Bless.
XoXo ~Alexandra
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